emo and dramallama to thread (well this one)
So like, everything is going fine until you start thinking.
And then you come up with this.
I can’t separate facts from fiction,
what is there, and what I want there to be,
I am confused, relieved, happy, disoriented,
I do not know what to do, where to go, how to act,
I don’t know how to react to this,
I don’t know what is happening.
I tell myself I do not know what I want.
I tell myself that I have everything is under control,
I tell myself everything will be alright,
while I do not know how this will end.
It hurts, it makes me uncertain,
my belly has little butterflies flying in it,
but I do not know if all this is answered,
it all feels so weird,
so overwhelming,
so omnipresent,
I slowly try to understand what it is,
try to accept it,
is it real?
Is it so deep?
Has it future?
Will it ruin everything we have?
Do we have anything?
I question what’s real and what isn’t,
I doubt myself, while I only want to hear three words
”I am too.”
And until then I keep wondering, wandering,
always at the ready……
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